Biting my finger nails...

I am nervous because I have my first diabetes test in 2 days time. I am scared, I don't want to be told to stop eating cakes.

You'll have your Daddy's eyes - Sarah Connor

It is Father's Day this Sunday, the first one for my husband.

Here is a lovely song I found (and so true):

Hello morning light
I cannot fight the feeling
Something’s changed
I’m lying in my bed
And feel a second
heartbeat in my veins

The sky is more blue than yesterday
The grass is green and high
The sun sends out her warmest rays
To welcome you my child

Every time that I think of you
I feel a love that’s sostrong and true
I know when you arrive
You’ll have your daddy’s eyes
Every time that I’m feeling blue
I sit right back and I think of you
That’s when I realize
You’ll have your daddy’s eyes

Frustrated

Why did it feel like it took one month to get to my 20 week 'half-way' mark and why does it feel like 5 months since then?

I am in a bit of a frustrated state now. We have shopped for a few most of the major things for the baby's nursery; I have read ahead all the way to the end of most of my pregnancy books; I have set a date for the baby shower and my sisters are taking care of the details; everyone I know has been told that I am pregnant and we have caught up to celebrate...

Now I just want my baby to be here.

Also, quite selfishly I want my body back. I know I should be trying to enjoy this pregnancy, and for the most part I am, but is it so bad to wish my husband could 'take over' the pregnancy just every so often? Maybe just one night per week to let me sleep a whole night through.

I have started to get uncomfortable sitting for long periods and as for lying in bed at night, I have no trouble getting to sleep, but after a few hours of rest my hips ache and I just lie there waiting for morning to come so that I can stop lying down.

On the up side, only I can really feel the baby move and kick and my heart sings whenever this happens (even in the middle of the night when it keeps me from sleeping).

24 weeks 4 days

A cousin for Pudding

I am so excited for my little unborn child as I found out over the weekend that Pudding has a little unborn cousin! After a long time trying, my husband’s sister is pregnant and due in April. She is so lucky because next month is when they were due to start IVF.

We are not supposed to know yet because she is only 5 weeks pregnant and doesn’t want to announce it, but her over-excited parents were bursting to announce the good news to us.

We went out to lunch with my husband’s parents and two little children crossed the road in front of us. They couldn’t’ help saying, “Soon that will be us with two little grandchildren” and we sort of figured it out from there since my SIL is their only other child.

I know it is only early days for her, but I am so happy. I really didn’t realise how sad I felt for Pudding that he/she wouldn’t have any little cousins to play with growing up. My siblings are far from settling down and my SIL was the only other hope. I had so much fun playing with cousins at family parties when I was young, and I was sad that it didn’t look like Pudding would get to experience that. But now I imagine Christmas and other family occasions with at least one other child and I am so excited.

Ramblings

My belly has grown quite a bit over the last week. I compare myself to photos of other people at 22 weeks and I am still quite small, but I figure I had quite a lot of space for my belly to grow into. Although I was in the healthy weight range prior to becoming pregnant, I am so tall (180 cm / 6 foot) and have always had hips that could only be described as ‘child bearing’ so Pudding has lots of space without protruding too much. But now, all of a sudden I look pregnant. It is great!!

I feel our little one move regularly, especially at night after dinner until I fall asleep. My husband has started reading Enid Blyton’s “The Magic Far Away Tree” to Pudding and I as we are going to sleep, although far from calming Pudding down, I get more kicks as he reads than I do for most of the day. It feels nice though, feels like we are a little family.

I really have to start organising baby things now, we have only purchased a couple of things so far and now want to start looking at a change table which doubles as a chest of drawers and a car seat for bubs.

I have been doing research on baby car seats and I think I am going to go for the baby capsule and then get a toddler seat once they are 6 months. I can see how the ones that double as a baby capsule and then turn around to make a toddler seat make sense, however, I really think being able to lift the baby out of the car in the capsule will be a lot easier.

Anyway, these are the issues that fill my days (when I should be working!)…

21 weeks, 4 days