Making the decision to have a child is momentous… it is to decide forever to have your heart walking around outside your body.

Friday 30 March 2007

On a slightly different note:

When is it cold enough to turn on the heater at home?

It seems every autumn my husband and I have this debate. I know it is only March but it is 18 degrees celsius today, I think that 18 degrees is cold enough for a heater in the evening.

His argument makes a lot less sense: it is only March therefore not heater weather.

At least it will be August next week :)

POAS time!!

The only way I have been able to get through this week is to promise myself that I will POAS Saturday morning. I know it is probably too early to tell anyway, but the test says 3-4 days prior to expected AF. Tomorrow it will be 2 days, so I am hopeful of getting an accurate result (although I'll try not to believe it 100% if it is negative).

I am so sick of checking my body for any possible sign of pregnancy. I am not tired, my breasts are no more sore than usual at this time of the month (although I think I have noticed an increase in size of montgomery glands - not that I really know what they looked like before I started checking them!), no sickness (although i know it is way too early for that anyway).


The only thing giving me heart is Brenda's (LifeCanBeaShit) comments on the blog of 'a brief history of you' saying that the first symptom for most people is a missed period.

Makes me feel better that I haven't got any damned symptoms yet!! Gggrrrrr! (slightly better anyway)

Wednesday 28 March 2007

Uncertain times call for


the magic eight ball!


Unfortunately I didn't get the answer I wanted the first time so I kept doing it until I can't even remember the first answer!

Monday 26 March 2007

Dare I dream...

... or will I just end up disappointed?

This morning I was thinking about what to write on my post this afternoon, I was pretty sure it was going to be about how stressful it is waiting to see if all your hard work in the last month has paid off and how much harder the 'waiting' part is that the 'trying' part.

However, I have since (all this afternoon) been getting cramps in my stomach. The only problem is that the cramps started when I was reading on the net about implantation pain. So now I have a dilemma: do I hope that they are implantation pains or not get my hopes up because they are probably psycho semantic?

Friday 23 March 2007

Bedroom Olympics: Round One

My fertile time of the cycle has now come to an end - round one is finished. Goodness know what the fruits of our labour will bring us.

It was a tough week, before officially 'trying' I would have (and did) laughed at suggestions that ensuring my hubby and I have sex daily would be hard work - but it was. It started quite fun, a little bit in the morning before work etc. but then he started to feel the pressure and needless to say performance plummeted. Plus the only thing that would have really helped perk him up, so to speak, was off limits as I hear that saliva is really bad for sperm (can anyone confirm this for me?).

On Saturday night I confided in my girlfriends about the dilemma and we went shopping: to Sexyland! We decided on a nice 'couples' adult movie to hopefully get my husband (& me!) in the right frame of mind to make babies. It took a while, but by the end of my fertile period we were working well as a team.

So fingers crossed ladies!

Tuesday 20 March 2007

It's only the beggining...

(and I've already gone and lost my mind)

My husband and I got married two months ago in a beautiful (Australian) summer garden ceremony. We then enjoyed a wonderful month long honeymoon in South East Asia.

We had lived together for 5 years before getting married and we knew we wanted children quite soon. Our formal line was that I would stop taking the contraceptive pill halfway through the honeymoon and we would just see what happened. 'We'll let God decide when we will be gifted with a baby'. I was so sure that we really believed this.

Then, imagine my surprise when we got back from honeymoon and I was devastated by my period. Deep down I guess I had thought it would just happen while we were on holidays and we could return home and start the 'happily ever after' part.

It is now mid way through my next cycle and I would like to believe a lot of that naivety has been knocked out of me in the last few weeks. I now know about having sex at certain times of my cycle, how to tell when I am ovulating and many more things that seem a lifetime away from glorious honeymoon-sex.

I am now force-feeding my husband with sex, checking my discharge and scanning fertility website every chance I get. Recently I stumbled across this little blogging community of TTC women.

It makes me wonder how this blog will progress... Will I soon be proudly displaying my pregnancy countdown ticker followed by photos of our baby... or is this the beginning of an epic TTC journey like so many women are enduring all over the world?

I guess that is something only God knows.